I just don't have much to say lately. I am a boring blogger.

Pirates, Big Members, and Censors

Halloween Party was fun. I wore my friend's afro and that was about the extent of the costume. Felt pretty sexy though in my diva outfit. I even got a few comments as such. Funny how much more makeup you can wear if you have dark hair! It was fun to wear dark lipstick and tons of eye makeup cause I would look like trailer trash if I did that sans afro wig. B went as "The Dude" from the Big Lebowski which was pretty funny, even had the White Russian to complete the look. I came home early (11:30) cause I am just a weakling. Two hours at a party is pretty good for me these days. I had two glasses of wine at dinner and then one mixed drink over about 6 hours and it was plenty for me. Eeks, I am a lightweight. B got home late and had gotten pretty wrecked. In two years I've never really seen him drunk so it was amusing, not that I really like drunk people, but it was a very rare occurrence and therefore it was entertaining.

The costumes were hilarious. Three of our friends came as the front, middle, and end of a ship dressed as pirates. They had card board boxes decorated to the tee, with guns, a mast, a steering wheel (Is that what they are called on a ship?) and even a barbie doll to front the ship. HILARIOUS. One guy came a censor. He was naked and then had a black bar on his front and butt and that is it. Pretty brave. Totally non chalont about it as well, like "Hey, I'm naked. What is your costume?" My excuse for not going naked is, well, um it's too cold, ya. Too bad I could never be that confident! Another guy's wife made him a giant penis costume complete with hairy balls. This was a riot, it was so huge that he had to duck and turn sideways to get in the door.

On to more menial items. I couldn't get my leg in lotus in Karandavasana today by myself, probably too much expectation. I was afraid I was going to put too much pressure on myself to be able to do it and that is exactly what I did. Oh well, all is coming.

Halfway done with student teaching woo hoo! I hope I can get a job and that we can go to Costa Rica next summer for atleast a month. That would be so good for us- not so much of the worker bee everyday stress which living in SoCal or any other Metropolitan area provides. I'm sure everyone has stress at all different levels and varieties. I have been finding that doing breathing exercises really reduces anxiety and stress, as well as that physical. When I breathe into my rhomboid (location of my most recent of injuries) things are A-OK. When I don't and forget about breathing, my rhomboid reminds me with a sudden jerking pain.

A big marine layer just sweeped in and it is chilly now, yesterday it must have gotten to around 78. Beautiful and sunny but I was lazy as can be (must be the snake in me). I also didn't sleep well friday night, and on my only day to sleep in I was up and totally awake at 7. LAME. I spoke to Maria this morning and she said she did the same and it is due to the New Moon. Does anyone else experience lack of sleep during the new moon? Full moons I usually feel heavy and sore, new moons kind of flighty and unfocused.

How is everyone? I am looking forward to the holidays this year more than normal, probably because it also will be our 2nd anniversary, the end of my student teaching (except for one week in January) and the chance to see my family.

Seriously Sweet

I just did Karandavasana by myself three times. I feel like a yoga rock star. This has been my nemesis for a year now. SWEET!!! Now if I can do it in front of Tim on Sunday....

No title for the weary

Almost healed! YIPPEE!! Can do everything at yoga, only thing I can't do is softball.

Found out some horrible crazy shit that some of my kids are going through... alcoholic molesting boyfriends of their mother.... getting jumped with a hammer... I love my kiddies and I want to kick some ass right now for hurting them.

Seems like lots of my friends right now are hitting the bottle. I wonder why we all feel like drinking... Here's to ya!

Things to do:

1. Halloween party saturday. Gonna be sweet!! Thinking of going as the characters from Big Lebowski. OH yeah... best costume right here.
2. Figure out some money quick
3. Get my substitute teaching permit
4. Stop popping these two huge zits on my chin
5. Shave my damn legs... it is a jungle
6. Have some nooky, been crazy Randy lately (must be the recent lack of yoga)

Knock on wood

Back getting better, had accupuncture again, and then dug into my back with a baseball- pretty intense accupressure for about an hour last night. Feeling dang good in comparison, no stabbing pains that almost make me faint at the moment. Sweet! Progress! I am hoping to go to yoga tomorrow and take it REALLY easy.

B and I are going to have a "talk" friday night... hmmm, scary.

Yo mama goes to bed at 830, no wait, that's me

Soooooooooo, been an interesting couple of weeks. Have a crazy student story, but can't say a word about it because this is the web and i've learned the hard way not to say a damn thing. We'll just say it involves a household tool and someone getting shot.

On another front, really hurting yourself is a challenge. You have to stay put and not escape your head space via exercising. I love to exercise because I can clear my head, clean out my body, and focus on something. When I can't exercise I am just stuck here with me... Not nearly as fun. I am getting better, working with an awesome PT and focusing on getting better. Get beda, get beda....

Yet another front, isn't it odd when you do something and don't even think that it is anything of consequence, and then it totally comes back and bites you in the ass, and hard? Well, I did something stupid and wow did it start a wildfire. I had NO thoughts of reprisal yet as I notice with blogs and emails, there is no way to judge the way it is said as is useful in conversations face to face or over the phone. There is no tone attached to a blog or an email, it is difficult to attach tone, only the best writers can effectively do so. I am not going to say what it was, and those involved will know, but said person will never be mentioned again, never.

Two more weeks at my student teaching placement, it is going to be hard to leave some of my kids. 9 weeks with a different classroom and then I'm done!!!

I miss yoga. Maybe I'll be able to go back by the end of this week. I am going to go for a walk now. It is gorgeous, almost summery, and really low tide which I love.

The sunset is gorgeous right now, but that is about it

This has been a tough year for me in several ways, but mostly in the physical health way. Started out the year with a knock-me-on-my-ass-for-five-days flu. No yoga for one week. Then hurt my rib. Two weeks off. The took a trip, so two weeks off which was ok, but then got a killer virus, another two weeks off. Then had to switch to night classes cause of work. So can't do nearly the kind of practice as before. Now I've hurt my back, and pretty badly at that. Already been a week, don't know when I will be able to practice. So, is this a sign that yoga just isn't for me? Maybe.

I lost my grandma

Financially I am so in the whole it isn't funny. I have about 25 grand in student loans and counting. I still have 2.5 months of student teaching. So by the time I'm done it is gonna be about 30 grand. Yeah. Stoked about that. Chiro and PT bills not helping on that front either.

My back hurts worse today than yesterday. Not a good sign.

B and I are living in a hole, with mold. I doubt he's ever going to want to get married.

So it actually sounds like I'm having a mope fest. But I'm in a really good mood today. Dealing with reality and not wanting to off myself, that is a good sign eh?

Do I always just bitch on this here blog?

I need a photo... here ya goooos... me thinking about how lame it is to be injured in your back and not be able to do a damn thing. No yoga, no runs, no softball, couldn't even go to work! LAME ASS.

I got a haircut, was feeling pretty gross. It looks better, but I still feel kinda gross. Not being able to do anything besides lie around will do that to ya. I got a couple of inches off. Hope I don't have "the Rachel." Kinda feels like it.

It is beautiful outside. I gotta get out there.

I am definitely allergic to my classroom. I had to take a couple of days off because of my back and now my lips are fine. Or maybe I am just allergic to working. Ya, that is it. I wonder if I can get some kind of disability for that.

I finished second season of Grey's Anatomy yesterday and was balling. Yes, crying for a long time. It was soooooooooo sad when Denny died.

Pleased to say I have been able to sit up all day and haven't needed to lay down because of extreme back pain. Yes! Improvement. I miss yoga however.